07/25/11

I'm finally over you , I'm so glad. but i still feel horrible, why ? i dont know why but i do. I feel horrible with you or without you . I cant be with you or without you. I loved you, i feel the pressure getting taken off my shoulders. But i miss you. This is the one of the little times ive felt amazing in a long time. I missed this for so long , and now it feels so good. Being able to be free, without having to think about you . It feels good to know that theres people who love me out there and that are helping me along the rough times. I loved you . But , i love them.

07/14/11

I love you and you used me like a doll. You say that you love me and that im your sister but do you really thionk i believe that ? How am i suppose to believe what you say anymore! All you like to do is lie to me. You say that im always mad or sad , but if it werent for you and my bestfriend... i wouldnt be this way. I was i could just be done with youl and forget about you, but me , and you and many people know that its hard to leave someone and forget about them, especially when you love them. I wish i could tell everyone that i dont love you or like you , but i cant cause its not true, I never know what to do anymore... i would rather want to like him then you. You ruined my life. Thanks....

07/02/11

I dont know what to do. Do i love you or will it pass? I think everyday ,since the day i found out. I dont know if it was good or bad but i know that my heart will never beat so fast. It killed me to hear you say it and hurt me even more to see it. What you two have is unforgettable but if i dont i will never heal. you were suppose to be mine and you promised you'd never love her again. You used me and how could i even forget it. you played with my heart and never really cared . You came to me when you were down and said all this but as soon as you could you broke me down and went to her. i told you i loved you and all you said was kay. i dont even know what to do with her. She said that she didnt like you and that she never would but what happened to that promise? You broke it again. I'm done with you and your shit. Peace.

06/29/11

Sitting here alone, doesnt help the way i feel . I want you with me . You know how i feel and you dont get it at all. Once again you love my bestfriend. I'm not gonna bother, cause i have something better to think about. (:

06/28/11

Sleeping alone with no one around , it sucks . I want you two here with me. Everyone here doesnt get that im in pain. Crying youself might be normal, but crying all night , is horrible. I cant stand to be here another night and have them all be together and me being alone. I mmiss you comfort you used to give me, the warm hugs, your sweet smile and soft voice that you used to comfort me with. But now your so far away. The closer person to me doesnt really care anymore. This is all wrong and it shouldnt be like this. How can everything be so right and then all suddenly crash? I love you and miss you. Forever and Always. <3

06/27/11

I sit here alone , thinking of you. You are the only one on my mind. Though you here with me it feels like were miles apart . I don't want to have to separate , in anyway .
Your so close but also so far away . You don't get that without you , I would cry every night. Not having you with me make me cry at night . I love you and your amazing and sweet .

I'm breaking down I'm falling down, But now I'm breathing . And now I am scared to move, Don't listen to a word I tell you . Just take me by my hand, and I swear I'll make this up to you.

I'm so confused . I don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost in my thoughts all the time now. This whole week has wreaked my mood. I went to Wonderland with the band and Athletic Council , it was fun... yet shit still happened. I've felt horrible ever since, Monday. I miss my girl , my best friend. Shes always there for me but i haven't seen her in almost a month. She amazing . I love her so much . We go through everything together. I only meet her last year , and we're closer then many of my friends combined. We had trouble with guys this week together... at the same time. Weird right? When shes upset, i am . When she is , i am. I tell her everything. But right now , i just want to see her . She lives in Cambridge now, and i only get to see her once a month .. maybe. I cant wait to see her next week ! <3

I miss him . I don't know if i love him anymore. I care about him . I think it might just be because of everything thats going on that makes me feel like i don't love him anymore. I always want to be with him, but i also sometimes dont even want to be around him. He doesnt get that i care about him more then anything . He still doesnt notice that i Love him. I'm not talking about another little crush , i meant it i love him. He bugs me so much , he pisses me off and is just obnoxious. He always thinks hes all that and shit  , but i could never leave him or be away from him. He would be perfect with The girl he likes, there so much alike, but she uses he and a couple other guys that likes her. She my friend , but shes so ...UGH. -.-
She likes this other guy. Hes sweet , cute, nice and everything . But i personally think they shouldn't be together. There so different and not very good together.

One last thing i want to say is that .. I might like him too... $:

Wish - To have things sorted out. $: <3
Song - I Think About You Every Day    A Rocket To The Moon (: <3