*Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times.I watched you laughing from the passenger side.And realized I loved you in the fall.

I can't do this. I want him, need him, care about him. But i cant have him and its killing me. The more i think were getting closer , the more were separating further. I can't take it anymore. I love him , but i can't trust him. I want to but i just cant. I want to tell him everything , but i also want to keep everything inside. I don't think i could continue everyday with out knowing that i could easily come home and write. I want to have some one i trust , someone who could hold on to my secrets and never say a word to any one. i don't have anyone i can trust anymore, everyone has left me here. Everyone has that person they can trust and say everything there feeling to. But i don't, if i say a word, I'm done no one can see my pain deep inside. My sister ... i want to feel what shes feeling but i cant. i want to help her but i don't know how. I know there is a lot of things that she wants to say , but she cant and i can see it in her eyes.

I have no best friend. I never really think I did, I've always had people say were are best friends but it always turned out bad. I can't take the fact that all my friends are leaving. I want them back , I want to have some one I can trust with everything. I want everyone back. I have been thinking for the past couple days , can i trust my sister with all my secrets? I want to , i want to be able to crawl up to her and tell her everything. But i cant do that she has enough on her mind and problems she might not able to solve , she doesn't need to deal with mine. :/ 


Goodbye  For Now. (:


Wish - to find some one i can trust. :/ <3
Song - Back to December Taylor Swift (: <3